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Sunday, April 11th, 2004
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5:31 pm - wow, your lip ring is so hott, girl.
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so, april 11th...easter. woke up around 8ish and headed to the beach. it was so beautiful out and there was a nice breeze so the sun didn't feel as hot as it really was. i got a major sun burn. im getting the bomb ass tan im so psyched. talked to nancy, we might hit up the drum circle tonight at the beach. totally think i saw choky at the beach today, it was him or a total look-a-like...could be him, he told me he was in sota. okay so we we're going to have an italian dinner home, the family and my uncle...but my mom and everyones too tired to cook & clean up and whatever so we're going out. but before my mom and i found out that we were going out we went to the foodstore to get some food and i met this boy there. hella cute surfer-like boy..we exchanged numeros and hopefully we'll hang out before i leave next monday. nancy and i hung out with brian last night, hes a pretty nice boy. i felt bad cause i totally bitched him out for giving me the wrong directions, yet they were right. okay well im gonna go, peace out.
current mood:  happy
current music: the masters.
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| Saturday, April 10th, 2004
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1:31 am - SATAN MOBILE.
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i just had the most amazing conversation with my nigga corey ever. <3333.
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| Friday, April 9th, 2004
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6:30 pm - e320, c500 ?
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so after driving around town in a 2004 dodge viper...my dad decided to buy, no not a viper, but a mercedes. i never knew how many different types of mercedes there are. the one they got is phat though, sick color and its loaded as fuck. its got this really neat "feature" when a call comes in you can just talk through the radio and whatnot, pretty phat. nice chrome rims and its the bomb ass ride that im gonna pimpout fasheezy. my brother also got a goped today...lucky for him im stealing his sector nine now so im happy. i don't know where nancy is, me and that ho are supposed to chill tonight, motha fucka bailed one on me last nite. the major reason why i love florida and would love to live here...its 6:35 in the evening...and the sun is out as if it was 2 in the afternoon. hott ass shit im going in the jacuzzi...wooo be jealous niggas.
<3333.
current mood: hopeful
current music: apani b. fly.
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8:37 am - survey at the ass crack.
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15 Years Ago, I:
1. was three years old.
2. was just as badass as i am now.
3. was watching mass cartoons.
4. had amazing long curly hair.
5. was the love of everyones life, omg, nothing changed except my hair and age...totally rad.
10 Years Ago, I:
1. loved micahel rubenstein.
2. had the crazy clothing style.
3. was obsessed with full house.
4. liked going to school.
5. ate at friendlys with my momma for breakfast every saturday morning.
5 Years Ago, I:
1. was 13 and wore jncos.
2. was a cheerleader.
3. was with the snobmob.
4. being popular almost counted.
5. moved to a new hood.
3 Years Ago, I:
1. wanted to drive.
2. started smoking pot.
3. got piercings.
4. loved what school was about.
5. class clown.
1 Year Ago, I:
1. worked at waldbaums.
2. was a junior.
3. didn't give a fuck about school.
4. had gross hair.
5. became slightly more rebelious.
4 months ago, I:
1. had a job.
2. had a thing with some boy.
3. got my second lip ring.
4. got a new car.
5. realized i HATE winter.
Yesterday, I:
1. went to dennys.
2. went to the beach with nancy.
3. ate at bella roma.
4. went to the mall.
5. got sick.
Today, I:
1. had a crazy dream with Chucky[that killer doll.]
2. woke up at 7am coughing my brains out.
3. am going to chill with nancy..well tonite.
4. am going to go to mcdonalds with my bro for breakfast.
5. mall and then chill at the pool.
Tomorrow, I:
1. will lay out in the sun.
2. will eat my three meals.
3. will run my 4 miles.
4. will go to tommy bahamassss <333333.
5. will enjoy my vacation like i have been? wow, it's so hard trying to remember things like that.
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| Wednesday, April 7th, 2004
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10:33 am - hot shit.
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so we got to florida earlier than scheduled which was phat cause the airplane ride down sucked for me, besides watching tv. my right ear was clogged the whole way down, i couldn't hear a damn thing and my brother was annoying the fuck out of me. we got to my uncles and we all just chilled out down by the pool. i felt like shit when we got back to the room so i fell asleep and didn't wake up till the next morning. went out to breakfast and chilled at the pool all day. im getting nice color thanks to the uv index of 10+. ;D i met this nice girl maria shes from maine, we're supposed to go to the Dali museum down in sarasota town later this week which should be pretty cool. then some other dude from new jersey who just moved here, he moved down here for business or soemthing..told me about some good clubs to go to and what not, even though im not too into that, but its something to do. me and nancy are going to the beach today that should be fun, make plans for the rest of the week and whatever. ate dinner last nite at Pams house, a friend of the family, her sons are pretty awesome. although her older son my age wasnt there, the other two who are 13 and 17 were definetly lots of fun and were supposed to hang out later tonight. sick shit maaan. whatever i gotta go clean up this apartment before my parents get back from breakfast so i can go to the beach, thats right, the beach, HA HA HA. mother fuckers. <333 peaceout.
current mood: hopeful
current music: rocket power.
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| Sunday, April 4th, 2004
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1:04 pm - MM MM BITCH!
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wow hella fucking phat friday night. this past friday night has made up for every shitty night i ever had the past few months. it was laurens birthday and we totally went all out. i don't think i've had that much fun in one night in a long time [even though i say that about everynight.] it just gets better every night. stayed up 'till who knows when, rave party, dominoes, searching for carlea and ashley...i can't even remember what else was going on. kids passed out on the front porch, guzzling out of beercocks? crazyness to the max. i chilled home on saturday all night, i was too tired to go out and do anything. plus i heard shit got busted at 40 acres so i was glad i didn't go out. i've got some last minute shit to do today before i leave for florida tomorrow. im so psyched, i really can't wait to go. i have to leave my house at 5:30 am tomorrow to get to JFK for my flight. im gonna have to get to bed hella early tonight cause with the clocks changing and shit, i'll never get up on time. so yeah i'll be in florida by this time tomorrow, nice warm weather, sun and hot people. holler. well im gonna start getting some of that last minute shit done now, peace out kids.
p.s. for everyone i love and you know who you are, please be careful this break. i don't want to come back to any horror stories, got it? good. MM MM bittttchhhhhhh<3
lauren keep the shit on lock for a girlie<333 ima miss 9:45 blunt sessions<3.
current mood:  anxious
current music: rjd2<3.
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| Wednesday, March 31st, 2004
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2:17 pm
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so saturday i dont remember what i did during the day for the life of me, i totally went blank. oh wait, i remember now. i spent all day fixing my car with my dad, hella awesome. calling every junkyard in the phone book, going to donaldsons and every auto store near my house..awesome. fixed the oil pan which was the only problem, thank god. showered and got dressed and went to my cousins for his birthday party. me and my dad went later and left earlier because we weren't feeling it. came home and kb and mb picked me up. drove around drinking some beers and what not...picked up lauren. of course rolled a fat ass dootchie. saw the singer from smash mouth, how i remember that i don't know but he was totally awesome, going to Half Penny Pub. i was gonna go dancing with him but i wanted to stop at maris to say happy birthday. so we went there and said whats up and then i think we just drove around until kb realized he couldn't drive anymore, stoner<3. wewerrdddd....sunday i went to the mall and did a ton of shopping for spring break. hella fucking psyched!!!! nancy is leaving to go to florida the same day as i, same time, DIFFERENT airport, bummer but should be good times once we get there. gettin tipsy and shizz...mama dukes is down with me driving the car down there also, hells kids. got lots of awesome clothes im really happy, and they all fit me really good, two thumbs up. laurens birthday is on friday, we had all these crazy plans to go all out considering we didn't go ALL out on mine [ not saying i didn't have fun, cause i surely did ]. but i guess its just an excuse, haha. im not droppin the plans here but we're not going to the city 'cause of rain. whatever we do, i know we're going to make the best of it and plus some. ash & carlea are gonna come out with us also, i love those girls they're too cool! ;D im getting my hair cut tomorrow how psyched am i!? hella psyched i need something done to this mop! woooo, i wonder if lauren has work today? b-sesh at ua. im getting really nervous about graduation, i hope i graduate, im not soooo worried about grades, it's attendance, i really need to start getting to school on time show my teacher (who is letting all my absents that get me over the 14 mark line go?!!!) that i am not taking advantage. get all my tests in and shit 'cause this friday is the last day of the marking period, for me at least because ill be away till the 19 and quarter ends the 16. major workout sessions this week have been lessened because of the killer CRIMSON WAVE?!!! </3. this week is going by pretty fast , wednesday already, awesome shit. supposed to rain until monday, horrible i always feel like a bum when it rains, shitty. anyway, im out of this bitch. poice.
current mood: full
current music: 38 special.
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| Saturday, March 27th, 2004
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9:49 am - get fucking psyched!???!
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after receiving another phone bill more than $200 dollars you think the worst part of the night is over...well it's a friday night...so yeah..you know it doesn't stop there. cause youre all psyched it's a friday night and all...but psyched for what? the usual just went on. drove around in search of finding alcohol and a party to attend. hung out with lauren&corey down by the water taking pictures and such. came home and hung at laurens with the kids, paintball playing and all that good shit, sword fighting and wrestling<3. leave laurens with corey to pick up bobby and go to the liquor store, i dropped them off and picked up dinner for my family. i ended up staying home for most of the evening because i knew by that time all the other kids were down at the park and i was the only one with a car and they'd all be fighting to sit in it. ao anyway i call up carlea to see what her and ashley are doing and they told me about some party they wanted to go to. i end up meeting up with james pick up some beers and go to carleas house. the party got shut down so we hung out at wendys for alittle bit, stopped by peconic and then decided to go meet these other random kids in sayville at starbucks. so we hear theres a party down in the woods in sayville. troop for about 15 minutes through the woods to this party that was supposedly so poppin with 6 gallons of vodka and 2 kegs or some shit like that? yeah well maybe we got there too late but there was no kegs nor vodka. this is when i realized how awesome carlea is. i've never seen anyone act so serious while so funny at the same time. i guess it's because she's 25 and has a 16 year old brother ;D so we end up leaving that place around 1245ish or so and we picked up lauren. went all the way out to the marriot to get it..from 5 guys in a hotel room to themselves....gay much? chilled down in medford where i totally killed my car...totaaalllllllly. im so fucking pissed off like you don't even understand i don't know what i did to it. of course i don't think anything much at the time..im like okay i hit this curb thing it doesn't look bad ill just stop here, have alittle chill sesh and then leave. so after we are done chillin...my oil light turns on about 5 minutes after we leave. i didn't really bug at first 'cause im thinking this thing is always on i wont pay any mind to it. but this time it wouldn't go off and it kept blinking...this is when i started bugging out. i panicked and dropped carlea and ashley before we could even go cause chaos in the 24 hour foodstores. turns out i was leaking oil this whole while from carleas to my house. i was calling all these people minus my dad because it was 2am in the morning and i was dui. so lauren calls up her friend richie for me to see what i should do 'cause my nerves were just so frazzled i had no idea what to do. obviously i shouldn't drive my car, but i wasn't leaving it somewhere for it to get fucked up and for me to get bitched at in the morning. so i drive it all the way home and wake up my dad because i didn't know what else to do......to make this long story short..i left it out in the street and now my dads gonna go check it out. my mom doesn't think anything MAJOR is wrong, but my dad on the other hand thinks i need new pistons, crank shaft and shit like that i don't even know what he was saying. total bummer because i leave for florida in a week and i don't have a car now to go do shopping and such. lauren i have news for you, you probably already know this but...you know how you were bugging out cause mike and your mom are working crazy shifts this week? let it pass over b, my mom bumped into your mom, they're doing it to by you a car, BIOTCH! so now that im totally screwed out of a ride i get to use all my other friends like they use me, oh waittttt......they don't have cars!!!!! haaaaaah. faggots. [not intended to everyone] so yeah now i have to find a way to get that 12 pack out of my car into my room......act sick so i don't have to go to frannies for anthonys birthday and find out what the deal for tonight is. maybe i will go to anthonys because there isn't EVER anything going on out here. such a sour fucking mood goddammnit. i heard it is gonna be like 70 degrees today thats totallly rad, considering its 43 and raining right now? blahhhhh. if anything is going down tonight, i expect your ass to drop a line on my dead cell phone or something and we can figure out a plan. as of now im gonna go be pissed off because i made myself a nice bagel with cream cheese, and i don't have ORANGE JUICE. despite the rendevous of curb & car last night i had soo much fun hanging out with carlea and ashley. goodtimes<3333.
current mood:  pissed off
current music: fuck music.
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| Sunday, March 21st, 2004
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4:55 pm - no one should ever feel the way that i feel now.
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fuck dashboard, it's all about being emo and crying because you're not wanted by the one you want most. knowing that you don't even matter to that person, and no matter how hard you try to forget, you just end up thinking about it 10 times more. i guess in time i'll get over it but for now it's so ridiculous and i hate it. someone needs to get me out of this state of mind, like.....stat? i just wish i meant as much to you as you mean to me</3.
on a better note, the townhouse that we baught in florida is finaalllllly finished im totally psyched. im most likely going to spend half the summer down in florida because i hate newyork, woopwoop. can't wait for spring break vacation dudes, helllla stoked! woooweeeee. anyway, dinner is almost ready and i have to shower, looks like another parking lots sess with my biddy. poice.
current mood:  depressed
current music: silencio.
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1:20 am - ahhh, sometimes my horoscope is too right</3.
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There's a part of you that is ready to head off in a new direction, for you see the potential and you know how you can make the most of it. But you're more likely to hold yourself back, especially if this involves love. At this time in your life, you are less interested in the quick fix. You want long term solutions and relationships that can stand the test of time. Move slowly and you'll be just fine.
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12:54 am - whatever yo i will do donuts on your lawn...
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so today consisted of lots of sleep for me, as well as pawning my life away...not in any prostitutional way thank you very much! but yeah, i tried pawning my laptop, but that didn't work out too well. sold some clothes to Platos Closet or whatever...got like 15 bucks..i was actually psyched on it, haha. i came home and chilled waited to see what the game plan was for the evening. ended up going out to dinner with the family and coming home to pick up kelly. turned out to be an okay night i had alot of fun. got kira and jaimie who are two of the dopest chics to hang out with and i'll be calling them more often. picked up some beers and headed out to some parties. one party was a total bust and we couldn't even get in..something about our clothing...wasn't ecko or enyce enough for them...whatever. carlea said to go to her house to meet up and decide were we were gonna go party but ended up partying at her house. i was having a killer time, i finally met ashley and i saw so many kids i haven't talked to in a while. chiara[sp] who looks so amazing shes such a nice kid<3 i haven't seen her in so longgg. elin was gettin her drink on lol. kelly, nicole, and becky were out tonight, i think they got a laugh when i tripped into the olympic size pool of a pot hole tonight as well. baked out erikas lancer with my bessssst cousin for life and then while we were heading back into the party....we all got kicked out...shit was pretty whack..casey kicked out all carleas friends...carlea kicked out all caseys friends...we just left because we didn't want to start shit and kids were trying to steal my beer, assholes i saw that. but we ended up meeting at pineneck, didn't stay for too long 'cause we didn't want to get busted by the cops or anything....got some grub, dropped the girlies off and now im sitting here burnt as fuck thinking if i let the booze hound in me come up. hhhhhmmmmmm. i was just thinking about how i totally have a crush on this kid. actually it's not really a crush, it's more of a discovery...discovered that i thought he was actually really goodlooking and i want to start talking to him or something...totaaally braahhhhhh. i dont know what im talking about whatever, peaceout.
current mood:  drunk
current music: wutang.
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| Wednesday, March 17th, 2004
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7:21 am - the faces.
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so you know the faces...happy face..sad face..yadayada on AIM?
well theres this one face, the one with the foot in its mouth...wtf...i guess i was really stoned last night when i was online and i decided to ask people what it meant cause i didn't know...here are a couple answers.
HCkid00 (11:46:46 PM): its a foot mark right where the mouth should be.......hence the term putting your foot in your mouth........man
XburnTheRest (11:12:15 PM): um someone who smokes drywall
dro2003: you are that that stoned?
HAPPY ST PATTYS DAY BITCHES<3 DRINK UP!
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| Tuesday, March 16th, 2004
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2:45 pm - somethings are just better left UNSAID.
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went to the doctor yesterday and got put on medicine and all these ocd stomach pills. i feel like an old lady in the morning takeing them all it sucks but hopefully the pain will go away. yesterday after the doctor i picked up corey and we had a little photo sess. i hope most of the pictures come out, some were really good. hit up best buy and circuit city to look for some cds and shit then i got an application at costco. not like i'll ever fill it out, but it was worth a shot. aw steve zabo where are you i miss you?! i didn't feel like going to school today considering i have a major project to do that was due on friday and it's 11 points off every day you're late....gotta do that shit tonight...or now whatever. so i wake up at 645 this morning to tell my mom im not going to school....i look outside, and theres no snow on the ground no nothing, it's fine....go back to bed...wake up at 2...and theres snow, sleet, rain what the fuck i forgot it was MARCH?!! i hate snow and i hate you. i think lauren just got home from school...i just woke up...looks like theres a wake and bake session coming up in the next few minutes. holla<3.
peaceout.
current mood: annoyed
current music: kid koala.
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| Sunday, March 14th, 2004
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10:11 pm - never means never...
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WOW, someone fucking needs to get me out of this shitty state of mind. I was so psyched on the fun weekend that I had, well most of the weekend atleast, and all of a sudden, it just went downhill. IM so sick of this feeling, i really really am. no one should ever feel the way that i do now, and that seriously is no line. i don't know why IM such a fucking stupid girl, honestly i do things just to get myself upset. i always push limits with myself and i get so fucking hurt in the end. i really just need to stop with this petty bullshit earlier on because it ends up being something bigger [in my head] than it really is. i had such a great weekend, even up till tonight, i was having so much fun, and ONE little thing, just killed it all. such a shitty mood on top of my fucking stomach that's been hurting immensely for the past two days. total hospital pussycore action going down if this shit isn't gone by tomorrow. parting is such sweet sorrow....
.fuckyouihateyou.
current mood: disgusted.
current music: hot water music.
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10:23 am - i'll call 911 to the front...
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yesterday i didn't do anything besides play lacrosse and hang out with lauren. intense scattegorie session, that game is pretty dope. left her house so she could go to work and i came home and got myself some dinner. parents went out and i just hung out home until plans were made. hung out with the boys trying to find a party. karma kenny, that's all i have to say. that kid better realize that it's real and cant run from it mother fuckerrrrrrr. ended up at some party in p-town which was pretty phat, i met so many of my myspacers, haha i was psyched. corey and that insane kid had another encounter, and another....and another. i was having a fun time, besides the pains in my stomach. they're like pains i've never had before i don't even know how to describe it, and i really think im gonna go to the doctor tomorrow to get this checked out. eh. i deserve a shot to the head right now for doing...i can't even say, the unthinkable 'cause that wouldn't fit...but im just an asshole and someone needs to smack me for doing this. ahhhhh</3. it's so nice out today, minus the temperature but i don't really care too much because it's going to rain all week, or it was supposed to the last time i checked the weather. that is shitty, spring break is almost here, totally psyched about going to florida...22 days or something..hells. well i have to do something about this stomach of mine...someone call me and cheer me up let's hang out brahhhhhh. peaceout<3.
current mood: sore
current music: finch.
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| Saturday, March 13th, 2004
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4:55 pm - do this.
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copy, paste into comment, fill out, make me happy. :)
- Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
- How long have you known me?
- When and how did we first meet?
- What was your first impression?
- Do you still think that way about me now?
- What do you think my weakness is?
- Do you think I'll stay married?
- What makes me happy?
- What makes me sad?
- What reminds you of me?
- If you could give me anything what would it be?
- When's the last time you saw me?
- Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
- Do you think I could kill someone?
- Who am I?
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| Friday, March 12th, 2004
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2:13 pm - patch this.
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wowwww, i definetly had the most fun yesterday that i've had in a long time. hella session went down for 311. me, lauren and kelly...intense bro. chilled at smittys for a couple hours, just enjoying the moment. tottaaallllly got lost in the parking lot, yeah the parking lot is pretty confusing in the pitch black when youre 3 blunts deep. finally got out of there and got some munchies and headed back to ptown. got even more wrecked, and then called it a night. lauren got busted, but her mom didn't care too much...hopefully she'll keep it on the d/l and wont let my momma dukes know. so it's friday, im not sure what the deal for tonight...prolly the usual...im down for that..except i feel like drinking. we'll seeeee.....hmm hotel party tomorrow night ? whats goin on with that shit? school was pretty decent today, only got there at 8:30..yeah im getting better with my lates. well i have to make a few phone calls.....a sick call to waldbaums for colleen being one of them...woooo. peaceout kids.
current mood:  lethargic
current music: hieroglyphics.
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| Wednesday, March 10th, 2004
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8:29 pm - she fuckin hates you.
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Now enter special things to detour all the pain, like a brand new, solid mess. But nothing seems to last... It strikes when you've thought you won. It's self destruction. It strikes when you've thought you won. And the delicate balance won't survive the turbulence. Now, enter the escape from everything you've made. Cause something wrong inside won't let you live your life. It strikes when you've thought you won. It's self destruction. It strikes when you've thought you won. And down you will go, with a tail of flames stretched out behind you. The cold wind will blind you. And in all that you can't see. The simplicity is beautiful.
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| Tuesday, March 9th, 2004
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1:11 pm - yeah hi how are youuuuu doin
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wowwww, so i found my husband last night. he is so gorgeous and we have so much in common and im the happiest girl ever right now, yeahhhhhhh man. mom even got me philly cheese steak, NO not from mc donalds! :P sooooo psyched. <3333333.
current mood: ecstatic
current music: someones knockin.
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| Monday, March 8th, 2004
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5:19 pm - hella mickey mouse
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so last period i discovered that kenny had taken these mickey mouse thingies...wowwwwww kbizzy. holy fuckin maniac i tell you. hiccup and guess what im writing on your back galore...werd. goodtimes. well im in participation in government right now and im doing some project actually, on political parties. American Nazi Party...never evne knew there was such a thing but there is and it's to preserve the white race and all, flag consists of swastikas and all. trutru. it's all snowy and gross out right now and i still didn't get a new windshield wiper blade...sucks for me. i don't know what im doing after school prolly nothing but chillin since it is nasty outside. i dont know where the fuck half my class is at the moment...lunch room i suppose. dougy finally gave me my GUK cd back<3. i keep trying to make it work on the computer but the cd player is disabled, go figure. one more period after this to go...hells kids, HELLS! okay peaceout niggros.
current mood: bored
current music: class.
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